People are gathering their pumpkins and checking out their wardrobes for costumes for tomorrow. I however have thoughts of saints and sinners. My heart is looking at what my life is harvesting right now. I feel so exhausted with doing that I have not had much time for being. So many blessings have happened over the past year and a bit. I suspect I need to find quiet time, away from goblins and ghosts to wrestle with demons. I have a few outstanding items that need to be reconciled.
As I did dishes tonight, I heard my former spiritual director’s voice in my head, telling me that one of my greatest challenges is choosing between two goods. He was right. I find it a challenge to say no but then I find myself in this perpetual state of weariness. God is there too with me. I will find rest in the days ahead and I will praise God still in this stressed out time. God waits for me to rest. I heard a lovely line in a song the other day that was something like: I will stand still while God moves. I want to learn how to do that.
I was also thinking recently about the image from Hind’s Feet on High Places when Much-Afraid comes to the altar and asks to be tied to it so that she does not struggle when the time comes, but submits to the will of God. I ask God to harvest my heart this autumn and make it wholly holy for the divine purposes for which it is intended.
How about you? Do you need to learn to stand still while God moves, ploughing and harvesting your life?