The book of Wisdom is not so well-known as other Hebrew Scripture readings. The phrase that caught my attention in today’s First Reading is the secret purposes of God. We have no idea, on the same vein as my last blog post, exactly what God has purposed for our lives. The God who has created our world, the one that changes with each season, and every morning, is not a God who can be boxed in. This God transforms every little thing in the universe for good. Why would we think we would know the Big Picture Plan that is given for our lives?
As spring arrives here, I cannot help but notice that whatever has quietly been sleeping is now being awakened to a new life. God is about to resurrect the world and in a couple of weeks we will see the Son of God rise to new life. God’s secret purposes are so much more than we can ask or imagine. Our finite minds simply cannot grasp what is happening. We do not see the whole impact of a life and therefore we cannot comprehend what is at work.
Trusting God that somehow my early death has a secret purpose is where I am at. I have no idea what that might be but I do know that many people are being touched by how I am currently facing my situation. I am trying to crack open discussions about death, dying, and living purposefully. The honest conversations that I am having are refreshing and I cherish those who choose to listen and engage in the conversation. Tonight I shared a meal with four friends and the conversation wandered to a depth that I appreciate. I do not know if maybe this is part of the secret purpose or not. Some days I think I should strap on a crash test helmet for these chats. My social worker suggested an alternative: Or just free fall. I loved that concept. Let us fall together into the holy depths of conversation and trust that the Holy One will bring goodness out of it.
What secret purpose might God have for you?
Can you free fall trustingly into the depths of the Unknown?
Secret-Planner, we have no idea what the Big Picture looks like. You are mapping out our purpose and chuckling as we try to guess what the Gift is. Grant us trust as we teeter on the edge and let us free fall into your loving arms. Amen.