The glory of the God shimmers all around us. Do we have eyes to see it? This time of year colours catch the eye every other second. My social worker had asked me if I had noticed a heightened awareness to beauty and at the time I had said no. More recently though, I find a twinge of sadness when I see something that makes my heart sing. I wonder if this is my last spring and if this is the last time I will see such exquisiteness here on earth. The smell of these trees is glorious too. What will heaven be like in comparison?
I sometimes hear a giant invisible clock ticking lately. Four months have passed since I was given my prognosis. I know that doctors cannot really predict how much time I have left…that they can only give a best guess. They do not factor in the millions of prayers that have been lifted. I still do not completely understand how that works either. What makes the prayers lifted for me successful but not for other, equally loved people? Does it even matter that people love me? Should not every person have God’s attention?
I could get distracted by all these existential questions or I could simply revel in the gift of each day and look for God in all things. The glory of God is all around me. If this is the last time I am blessed by beautiful blossoms bedazzling the eyes, then let me celebrate these buds now. Let them fill my heart with joy and my soul with delight.
What shimmers with the glory of God for you?
Are you living in the joy of now?
Glorious God, Generous Giver, bedazzle me in every moment. Open my eyes wide and my heart wider. Grateful, ever grateful, am I. Amen.