Claw marks…we leave them all over things in life. I have a friend who is arriving next week and I should be cleaning the spare room or packing for the weekend but instead I am writing this blog post. My home is a disaster area. I have had two years of fatigue and recovery so I have not made decisions about certain things. The result is that I am precariously hanging on by fingernails it seems. I am dug in pretty good….and I do not say that especially proudly. The piles around my home are frustrating.
Enter one kind friend who had offered to hire a maid service for me. I boldly asked if she would consider a decluttering company instead. She agreed. God bless her!!! If I stayed put long enough I would be able to dig out but all this traveling has its down side. I com home, drop off one suitcase, fill another one, get on a plane, come home, and press repeat. Is this trip a big suitcase or a little suitcase? Do I have time to open the mail today and give it my attention or do I move on? Will I get to that stack of papers that I bought or do I just throw them away?
I am perched on a skinny twig on a high tree that is dead, easily broken, if I am not careful. My claws are wrapped tightly and my vantage point tells me a hurricane blew through the area, followed by a tornado. It has left me somewhat without power. I have a plan but I need to find days without interruption and that does not seem to happen much. When I was away last weekend, a friend suggested that I might need to draw my boundaries differently. She is right, of course. How am I ever going to pack up and move if I keep up this hectic pace? I see a change a-comin’.
My office is almost done. That will be high on the agenda for next week. That means a couple of more bags and boxes here until I decide what to do with them. Friends of mine were sharing with me that Spark Joy phenomena and I find it very appealing. I am going to start that next week too, I think, with the help of my friend who is visiting.
I have always agreed with the adage Do not postpone joy to clean the bathroom but this clutter is getting somewhat chaotic so I must act soon. I may need to start a giveaway box for family and friends. I will find a way to not hang on to those things I no longer need or find useful or beautiful. I long to be freer and more simple.
What do you hang on to that does not give life?
How can change happen in your life?
Dear God, open my hands and let me raise them instead to bless this space of mine. Allow me to let go of all that hinders and binds me. Let me be free! Amen.