Some days my energy fades to almost gone.  At those times, I give in and allow my body to rest.  I wonder if I will ever have a day that feels normal again.  I have hours of feeling like my old self, full of energy.  Today was not one of those days.  I was fortunate enough to start my Home Care cleaning today.  I watched as he cleaned and did a load of laundry.  I must have thanked him a dozen times in the two hours he was here.  He was so happy to make me happy that he left with a big smile.  I shook my head, also with a big smile.  Some people know how to enjoy their work. He said I was an easy client.  I was grateful beyond words for his time here.

Last night in my evening prayers I read these words in Jesus Calling by Sarah Young:

I am your strength and shield. I plan out each day and have it ready for you, long before you arise from bed.  I also provide the strength you need each step of the way.  Instead of assessing your energy level and wondering about what’s on the road ahead, concentrate on staying in touch with me.  My power flows freely into you through our open communication.  Refuse to waste energy worrying and you will have strength to spare.

Yesterday I think I may have had a touch of the flu. I slept in, had a remote Reiki treatment, went back to bed and slept some more, and finally roused myself to put food in my body.  I was thankful friends were bringing me supper so I did not have to worry about that.  Today I am much better though dehydrated.  I should buy some sports drink with electrolytes for moments like this.  The skin on my foot Tuesday night had been so taut that it hurt for it to touch anything. Resting completely yesterday helped to restore it to a more normal size.  I gave up my need for energy and rested.  I did have more strength by later in the evening.  Today though, I found myself still exhausted.

God is planning shorter days for me lately as I sleep and rest. I trust that I will be given the strength I need for what is coming.  I need to stop assessing and carry on with the plans I have.  I am working currently on plans for my prayer vigil. I think this is important to God on some level because I have found the energy to finally do this. God is my strength and shield. In God, I place my trust.

Peace,

Suzanne

Reflection Questions

Has your energy ever flagged to the point were you thought you might not be able to do the things you love?

Can you turn your health and energy over to the One who is Stronger, trusting that all will be taken care of?

Prayer

You are the One who is Stronger; help us to place our trust in you. May we learn to lean on you when we are depleted, knowing that you can give us strength to spare when we surrender to your plan for each day.  Amen.