Long-Lasting

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Some things last the trials of time. They stand despite having slings and arrows thrown at them. I was privileged to witness the return of a friend for the Thanksgiving weekend greet her friends who miss her. I had arrived at the dinner party first and watched as one by one they hugged her and told her how wonderful she looked and how awesome it was to have her back in town.

This Thanksgiving will you remember and allow gratitude to fill your heart? What is it that you can give thanks for this weekend? Will you gather with family or friends and share a hot meal? That’s more than many will be able to do. Will you bow your head in a safe sanctuary without fear of persecution or reprisal? Not everyone can experience that. Will you spend three days at leisure, soaking in at least one extra day of rest? Again some will not be able to afford to do that–literally.

The things that stand the tests of time can be precious. In this great country of Canada that I call home, I have many reasons to give thanks. May I always be cognizant that I have received much.

Where do you find yourself at this Thanksgiving?

Peace,

Suzanne

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Bearing Fruit

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Some days, I wonder whether I bear good fruit or bad. I pray that the good outweighs the bad. I use a handy little tool in Ignatian Spirituality to help monitor my actions–the Examen. Each night, I review my day, giving some thought as to where I got distracted and left the good path, and when I encountered Jesus or was Compassion to someone. I pray for forgiveness and that I may be better the next day–quicker to recognize my sin and to step away from it. I give thanks for the Christ moments and pray to be more like Him. It is a never-ending process but I am grateful for the introspection and for what I learn about myself and the world.

What kind of fruit did you bear today?

Peace,

Suzanne

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Rosary

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I had one of my grandmother’s rosaries for a long while before I actually used it. Today is Our Lady of the Rosary and I have not prayed it today but I have thought about it. For many years the rosary meant nothing to me–I found it senseless and preferred prayers that were not a frozen register. That is until I learned Ignatian contemplation. Suddenly the Mysteries came alive to me.

During the Exercises, I grew closer to Mary during Colloquies, moved by her beautiful fidelity to the bitter end. I do pray the rosary from time to time, loving especially the Mysteries of Light. I am amazed at how when one is open many graces can pour in.

Today, I have been sick again, and am on another round of antibiotics. The kind pharmacist who pulled up my information was compassionate when she saw I had already finished one. I was grateful for her empathy and warmth. Later in the day, resting and frustrated with the current state of affairs, I found myself thinking, “Pray for us, now and at the hour or our death”. Pray for me, Mary. As I drag my weary, aching body back to bed now, I imagine laying my head upon Mary and asking her to place her hands upon me and clear up this infection once and for all. Pray for me….and I will pray for you.

Peace,

Suzanne

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Beloved Vineyard Owner

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The First Reading today from Isaiah speaks of an owner of a vineyard and is addressed by the writer–or singer–as beloved. The landowner has a fertile hill, planted with choice vines. Soon enough the tone changes and we see that the vineyard is to be destroyed. God is a protective Creator and does not want the pleasant plantings to suffer. The Gospel reading follows this thinking with the parable of the landowner who watches his slaves and son be killed while trying to gather the produce. These are hard readings.

The Second Reading ironically tells us to not worry about anything but instead to give thanks when praying. God’s peace surpasses all understanding and this will guard our hearts and minds. After the other readings, I must confess that I would be worried but the next line holds a clue–we are asked to think about the things that are noble, just, true, pure, pleasing, and just. If we keep on doing these things we will not kill the slaves and destroy the vineyard.

This afternoon I saw Going Home Star, a world-premiere of a ballet about Indian Residential Schools. Here is the perfect example of a vineyard gone wild. Families entrusted their children to the government and church only to see them devoured. Generations later the fields still run with blood. This ballet is painfully powerful in places where hope struggles to survive. We see two of the principal dancers healed profoundly through traditional means. They begin to hold on to what is just, commendable and excellent, drawing from what they know of their ancestors’ ways.

The Beloved Vineyard Owner will not stand by and do nothing. God loves us and longs for wholeness for us. God will care tenderly for the field.

Peace,

Suzanne

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Francis’ Way

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There are so many model saints out there–that great cloud of witnesses that call us to be more. When I made my pilgrimage this summer, I would often slip my shoes off and place my bare feet on the holy ground, hoping that somehow by osmosis I could let the sacredness slip into my soul. I had gathered prayer requests prior to my departure and most people asked me to pray while in Assisi. Many asked that I pray that they may be more like St. Francis.

Today is his feast day and he has been on my mind. Francis was the son of a rich business man in Assisi. Francis gets him name from France where his father had business dealings. It seems to be somewhat ironic that Francis sheds his clothes and chooses to live simply when his father was a cloth merchant. This saint is a mystery–he can speak to animals and he hears a cross instruct him to go and rebuild a church in shambles. He gives up a life of riches, choosing an austere life instead. He calls all creatures his siblings. He received the stigmata in his final years, suffering much because of it. All this and still he lived with a joy that most of us only long for. He somehow mastered suffering and embraced even Sister Death. He followed closely in the footsteps of Christ, showing a broken church how to choose a different way, keeping his eyes on his Master. Kissing a leper was the beginning of a life of service to the least of these.

His joy drew people to him, despite the humility of his lifestyle. Francis was deeply devoted to the Eucharist and I wonder if this is where the joy became rooted deep within him. He created the first Nativity scene and understood the divine and human paradox that Christ lived. I know that spending time praying in front of the cross that spoke to Francis changed me. I only hope that the joy he felt can embrace me too. The famous prayer of St. Francis echoes in my heart tonight: Lord, make me an instrument of your peace…. This was a man intent on humble and joyous service. May I once again kick my shoes off and know the sacredness of his life, a life to which we too are invited.

Peace,

Suzanne

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Working Overtime

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I have always thought my guardian angels do not get paid enough for taking care of me. I suspect that they are constantly making sure that my foot does not stumble nor do I fall. God bless them! They have saved me from so much over the decades. I am so very grateful for them on this Feast Day of the Guardian Angels.

When I saw this broken statue in Berlin, I wondered if angels suffered loss of limb during the war, trying to protect their charges. Honestly, they wrap their loving arms around us to keep us safe and we do not know the consequences of their actions. Their gracious wings enfold us and keep us from harm’s ravages. In this shelter, we are left unaware of the cost of their presence in our lives.

I believe in angels–and I truly believe that I have a tag team keeping me safe and sane. I have felt them. I have heard them whispering to me to be attentive. I cannot begin to express my gratitude for the heavenly hosts that are dedicated to my well-being.

What do you believe when it comes to angels?

Peace,

Suzanne

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Saints Surrounded

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I have been silent for a few days but hopefully I will get back on track now. I have missed some amazing saint feast days. Today for example is Saint Therese of the Child Jesus. I have missed the Feast of the Angels Michael, Gabriel and Raphael which was the anniversary of my sister’s memorial service.

These days are ones that call for reflection upon the great cloud of witnesses that have gone before us. We are part of a bigger community, both seen and unseen. This weekend I visited my cousin in Vancouver and always marvel at how connected my spirit is to hers. Our sharing is deep and instant. It had been several years since I had sat face to face with her but there was no hesitation or awkwardness. The same is true when we joined a mutual friend just before I left. I think that is how the saints are with God–there is no hesitation, only wonderful expectations of the joy that awaits and wonderment at all the blessings that unfold.

Therese valued the little way of being faithful in small things. I value my friendships with the people I have spent time with recently because of all the little things that have solidified our relationship. Therese was faithful to her relationships too, especially the one with God. What little things are you grateful for in your relationships?

Peace,

Suzanne

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Balanced

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Summer is officially over on the calendar. The leaves are on fire these days, slipping into oblivion in time, scattering the ground with their lives. I often read a Jesuit priest’s evening meditations on FaceBook and tonight Jim Martin talked about Peter Schineller’s concept of spirituality lived out in autumn. Schineller, also a Jesuit, mentioned three points–a balance of light and dark, an ability to let go and an acceptance of death. These are powerful images and the one that spoke to me was balance.

September–a new year for many of us–is a time of balance. Imagine! When life seems busiest, we are actually being called to balance, to live in a state where we are not overwhelmed by the darkness because there is equal amounts of light. Tomorrow night I will gather with friends for Rosh Hashanah–the New Year celebration for the Jewish community. This is an opportunity to start anew.

It is time to let go too. Can we discern what is important to do and let God take care of the rest? When we leave the details to God, oftentimes our needs fall into kairos instead of chronos.

What autumn joys are you finding amidst the changes that come at this time of year? Stop for a moment and look at the magnificent colours decorating life right now. Think about how you can set the world on fire too. Where does God want your attention and energy? Let go and be transformed. God has you.

Peace,

Suzanne

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Early Birds

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Today’s Gospel from Matthew confuses most people. Why in the world do these latecomers get the same blessings as the early birds? What is up with that? Doesn’t that seem horribly unfair? How can someone who works less than me be paid the same as me?

Just breathe a minute. Is this one of those maybe it’s not really about me stories? The answer might be found in today’s psalm:

The Lord is gracious and merciful,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
The Lord is good to all,
and his compassion is over all that he has made.

The Lord is just in all his ways,
and kind in all his doings.

Hmmm…gracious, merciful, good to all, just in all his ways and kind are words we aspire to but often fall short of our own goals. The marvelous thing about God is God always gives more than we can ask or imagine. I have been on the end of that outpouring of generosity. I sure hope you have too. Why would we begrudge it when God chooses to be abundantly loving to someone else? If we put the workers in a modern-day tale, maybe the worker showed up late because he was up all night with a sick child or maybe came only by the afternoon because she had been frightened to leave her apartment due to a mental illness. We do not know people’s stories. Only God does; only God can judge. We know our own stories and in the Gospel the landowner never breaks his promise to pay those who arrived early. Towards those people he still acts justly; to the others he is more lavish. Do I really need to know why? Contrarily, why some days do I appear to be the 5:00 worker that others are grumbling about? Is it still unfair when that other person is me?

It is hard sometimes to see that life is fair, when it does not seem that way. We have a God who loves us steadfastly and abundantly. We are called to seek the Lord while he may be found with the understanding that God’s ways are not ours as the First Reading points out. This mystery does confuse us because we look at what is not ours to complain about. If God makes the rain to water both flower and weed, why not us? We all may have a shopping list of questions at the Pearly Gates, but maybe while we linger here a bit it might be better to meditate on God’s abundant mercy and generosity than to whine about what seems unfair.

Peace,

Suzanne

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The Path to Forgiveness

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This morning I went to a workshop by Amanda Lindhout on Forgiveness. Amanda was held in captivity for over 400 days in Somalia by Islamic terrorists. Today she led us through meditations on how to make forgiveness a daily practice. I was sorry I missed her talk last night because I think she shared more of her ordeal but today was a good reminder of the importance of forgiveness in daily life. As in the Examen she suggested that once a day, one reviews their life to see where, in Ignatian words and not hers, we saw God and where we did not. In other words, look back over the day and see where anger did not allow you to be kind to someone. Where did you fail to show compassion? Where did someone hurt you? Where is forgiveness needed?

Daily practice of reflection is important. St. Ignatius thought the Examen was of extreme value. I agree that it reveals unhealthy patterns and allows the person to move to freedom. Forgiveness is all about living a freer life. Who do you need to forgive tonight? Can you take a baby step in that direction?

Peace,

Suzanne

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