Relationships are key to life for most of us. Today I have been considering more of mine. I started my day at the physiotherapist office. I had not visited him in over a year and so he knew nothing of my news. He and I have been through a lot together and we have a professional relationship of much mutual respect. He came in and leaned against the wall as he usually does, striking up easily a conversation, but I could not answer his question honestly immediately. How was I to catch him up on my life?
I skirted around the direct answer by telling him I was there because I had been in pain for a few days and explained why. I could see his brain whirling. He was not used to me fudging answers. I knew I could not tell him the truth without crying yet I went for it anyway. I managed to hold it somewhat together but the tears did well up in my eyes. I hate telling people who care about me that I am so sick as it is such a shock because I present so well. His compassionate response: May I give you a hug?
As he worked on my pinched nerve, he did what he always does–affirm me and ask me probing questions that help me figure things out. He is really fabulous on so many levels. I am better not only physically but emotionally too. I cannot stress enough how blessed I am to have a great team around me during this time.
I later met a colleague for lunch, someone for whom I have great respect. He has been in the field for a long time. We also had solid conversations about many topics and I walked away grateful for his insights, support and affirmation. Tonight, we gathered as spiritual directors and retreatants to close our journey of 30-plus weeks. This group of people has provided much comfort over the fall and winter regarding my illness. While all the retreatants do not know that I am sick, it has been wonderful to have some sense of “normalcy” in the topsy-turvy process that I have been through.
I came home at one point this afternoon to find a gift bag outside my door, with a book and a card with kind words in it. This is the fifth book I have gotten since I am sick. I look forward to reading it and the words will echo in my heart even under sedation next week. People have been amazingly generous to me.
Reaping what I have sown is a theme right now. I cannot tell you how many relationships I have been blessed with during this time. Prayers are continuing to be raised all over the world. I am humbled by the love and care. I am grateful beyond words.
Who are you grateful for this night?